You want to rip his face off with the venom you feel surging from your throat.
You want your words to burn the smile off his face and turn his dead straight hair to curly whirly burning shit.
He’s won
The fact that you are there sitting with him illustrates that perfectly
He knows this
You know this
And yet the want in you churns your very flesh
Your mouth is on him and he is quietly gloating
You hate him for every second this will take but you have no control
‘fuck you are volatile aren’t you’ he says
you have no words
your fingernails dig into his pasty white skins and he can feel your need, your hunger raging like a fire within you.
Your beyond speaking
Your kneading his manhood with your eyes, your gouging his ego with your teeth
You hate him
All of him
You can’t stop but he won’t respond
He’s concentrating
He’s swimming in his glee and watching it so he will not drown in you and crash the car.
But you want him to
Anything for the fire in you to stop singing at your insides
His fingers are suddenly stroking your heat
You bite
Lash
And fight with your words because they are all you have now
So lost are you in your own boiling
He could pull over but he won’t
He enjoys this hold he has over you too much
It’s new to him
Seeing you like this
Feeling you like this
You contained it so long
You were afraid he would be chased away by your wildness
And now it’s all of you
He’s watching you burn
And you are watching him like prey
When his head hits the bedframe
You will fight him
And he knows he may lose
Because he senses a challenge in you that no-one could win
you taste your own hate on his neck
you want it to unsettle him
An unfamiliar presence since you last licked his lips
Now he smells it and he cannot know what will come from it
But you do
And you don’t want to think about it
Because you’re all fire
And while you burn
You can’t see or think or hear
You just feel
fire